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Hello, my loyal followers! So, I know it’s been 2 weeks again since I posted, and I’m really sorry about that. The thing is, even if it still hasn’t been that long since the start of the new semester, things have gotten pretty crazy. I’m talking homework crazy. So, yeah. That’s the reason why I haven’t been able to post in so long. But, luckily, I have some free time right now, and I’m actually waiting for an archery match to start. So, since it’s been 2 weeks, I’ll have to tell you about all that happened since I last posted, and man, have things been happening (you can probably tell from the title). Although, this time, I really am going to try and keep this post as short as possible. I’ll eventually have to come up with some kind of posting schedule, but I won’t worry about that right now. Right now, I’ll tell you of all my interesting happenings.

So, the Monday before this past one, I went to our local nursing home with my GS Crew. Depending on certain circumstances, it can be enjoyable. Although, it can sometimes be sad. This trip was more enjoyable than some, and I actually saw an old teacher of mine who retired there. He wasn’t in the nursing home, he was visiting a relative. So, that was cool.

As far as archery goes that week, I actually don’t remember much, except for the fact that my archery buddy and I are totally awesome at shooting balloons.

Oh, I almost forgot about that Tuesday. That day, for me, was happy, yet, also, a little sad. It was the last day of the semester, and, as soon as the new one started, I knew lots of things would change. The thing I was most sad about was the fact that I have a really good friend, that I’d only bonded with over this school year, that I did have both a class and lunch with that I wouldn’t have that class or lunch with them anymore. Seriously, though, just over the course of this year, we’ve gotten really close. I admit, I didn’t expect us to grow that close, but I am really glad it happened, because we always have a lot of fun when we’re together. That’s why it was so sad for me.

On Wednesday, we didn’t have school.

Oh, wait, I also forgot to tell you about how I did on my 1st period final. Okay, so, I kid you not when I say I stayed locked in my room the night before for about 3 hours studying all the material. I felt ready afterwards, but then, something unexpected happened the day of the final. I was late for school, and I was freaking out, thinking that I wouldn’t do very good. And, what’s worse, my dad and I got into a bit of a disagreement, and he actually said some pretty mean things (it was all worked out in the end, though). Anyway, I finally got to school, and went and took the final. I wouldn’t find out until the end of the day whether I’d passed or not. As soon as school let out, I went straight to the teacher’s room, and, as I hoped, I passed! All my studying payed off, and it felt great! It was awesome. Anyhow, I will now tell you about the first day of the new semester.

First off, I’ll just say that almost ALL my classes changed, except for two! The only classes that stayed the same for me were 1st and 7th period. The first day was a lot more dramatic than I would have liked it to be. I wasn’t really sure what I was worried about, but I was pretty stressed for some reason. The good news is, even though I was mostly worried about who I would sit with at lunch, I was able to get some new lunch buddies. I’m talking about my archery buddy’s cousin and one, sometimes two, of her friends, and we sit at the table right next to where my archery buddy sits with all her other friends. So, yeah, it didn’t turn out nearly as bad as I thought it would. In fact, it turned out pretty good. Also, on Thursday, I went back to softball practice for the first time in awhile. Me, my archery buddy, and my archery buddy’s cousin all went back, together, for the first time in awhile. Although, some things had changed. Our practices aren’t happening at school anymore, but in an old gym, and, also, we’re now lifting. Lifting, as in using these machines to work out different parts of our bodies. It was pretty cool, because, after I worked out my legs on one, my legs felt all jelly-like when I got off. Also, I guess I didn’t have much rust on me as I thought I would, because I was able to get right back into the swing of batting (no pun intended). So, it went really well.

Now, I don’t know how, but I’ve pretty much forgotten everything about Friday. Well, now, I can move on to this week!

This Monday, was awesome. I’ll just skip everything else and tell you what I did after school let out. My good friend, who I told you about, who I used to have lunch with, usually walks home after school, but, this time, she was getting picked up. So, I decided to surprise her. When I got outside, as soon as I saw her, and made sure she was stopped, I ran over to her as fast as I could! Man, was she shocked! But, she was happy to see me, too. And I mean really, REALLY excited to see me, even though we hadn’t been apart that long. It was awesome, and I think we both needed it, because we were both missing each other. Also, that day, our archery team had our first and only away match of the season. Yeah, it was weird, having a match on a Monday, but I enjoyed it. We had to travel a ways to get to the place. And, also, we would be shooting against one of the top teams in our state. What made it so interesting, though, was the fact that my dad and I had to give a couple of my teammates and their mom a ride there and back, which was very interesting. Let’s just say we took a lot of selfies. Not long after we got there, everyone else finally started showing up, but we were the first ones. So, how did I do? Let’s just say I could’ve done better. Although, it really wasn’t my fault, it was because, during rounds, the 1st flight stopped after the 10m round and let the 2nd flight shoot, which I think totally threw me off (it’s usually 10m, 15m, then 2nd flight). The funniest part of the whole trip didn’t happen until after it was all over. When it all ended, me and the majority of the rest of the team stopped and got food at a restaurant. And there, for the first time ever, I got drunk and hyper at the same time. I drank root beer, which made me drunk, and, as if that wasn’t bad enough, I ate ice cream with many sugary ingredients. So, as one of my teammates said, I was like a kindergartner who drank 10 energy drinks. That being, the ride back home was a lot of fun. I think everyone laughed a lot at the fact that I was hyper-drunk, or I guess I must’ve said some pretty crazy things in that state. Yeah, it was definitely crazy.

The next day, I brought that night up in conversation with my archery buddy’s cousin at lunch. Although, I guess I should’ve brought it up differently, because her friend who didn’t know what we were talking about took my words in a completely different way. I said to her, “So,  (name), last night was crazy, right? I could barely get up this morning!” So, yeah, she was just like, “WHAT DID YOU PEOPLE DO LAST NIGHT???”, and so the cousin explained it to her. Let me tell you, I was telling others about that for the rest of the day, especially at archery practice later that day. I got a wide variety of reactions. Anyway, at practice, I didn’t do that well again. But, I just shrugged it off this time. Little did I know, that I would start doing a lot better at practice yesterday (the schedule changed). I actually don’t remember much from Wednesday, so I’ll skip it.

Thursday, just yesterday, my score went up to higher than it had been. I felt really good about that, and so, now I hope it will continue for today’s match, because this match just so happens to be our State Qualifier. Yeah. And, we’re going against the very team we faced Monday, who, did I mention, beat us by over 100 points? So, the only thing I can do is have faith in my ability and use all the newly-honed skills I’ve picked up so far this season. Well, I think that’ll be all for now. Wish me luck for this match, and I’ll post again as soon as I can!

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So, I know it’s been at least 11 days since I last updated this blog with an original post (as in, not sharing one from my other blog, but it did get a lot of good feedback, thanks to all who checked it out). But, as you know, I’m in my senior year, and unexpected work shows up all the time, so I never really know how busy I’ll be these days. But, I’m back to tell you how this past week went, and, also, at the time of me typing this, I’m unable to think of a good title for this post. Who know, though? Maybe as I type, I’ll type something that’ll give me some inspiration for a title. Anyway, I’ll start off with Monday (obviously), and tell you about archery and softball.

At archery that day, my score was pretty good. It could have been better, but it was okay. It’s weird, though, because it seems like my score keeps alternating each time. You’ll notice that when I get to Wednesday. I believe it was that day I was telling people about what I would say to our coach if she actually managed to make me mad like some other people she’s upset. Don’t worry, it’s nothing bad, I would just tell her that the main reason for me staying is not just because I love archery, but because I’ve been with the team for the 3rd year in a row, and, if I left now, I’d feel like I was turning my back on them. The first year I joined, the friends I made from it became one of the most precious things to me, just as precious as my actual family, because I do consider them to be like family. I mean, you know where I’m coming from, right? They’re my motivation. That’s how it’s been since the beginning. There isn’t anything I wouldn’t do to stay with them for as long as I can. Anyway, moving on to softball.

Starting off, let me just say that softball is starting to get WAY more intense. Seriously, we weren’t really doing anything major until Monday, then our coach just decided to ramp up everything. We were doing a lot more running, catching, and throwing. Also, yet again it got to the point where I thought I would throw up. The good thing is, I’m pretty sure I’ve almost mastered batting. I say that because, not only did the coaches say very little to me when I was batting, but one of my teammates, who I have a class with and didn’t really start talking to until softball, actually said to my archery buddy, who’s missed because of homework, that I was getting pretty good. So, yeah, that definitely boosted my confidence, not that it wasn’t boosted. It was great. But, even though it’s starting to get a lot more physically exerting, I will continue to stick with it, because I am not a quitter like I once was, and I want to make more awesome memories slightly different from the ones I have been making. I still have to earn their trust and friendship, but I think after this week I should have no problem with that. I’ll actually tell you about that in my next post, which will be my last post for awhile. Well, a couple weeks, at least. That’s because this week is the last week of school before Christmas Break, which lasts for two weeks.

On Wednesday, I was going to do softball to begin with, but, in the end I decided to stay at archery to get more practice, because, and I don’t think I mentioned this, but this Friday is our first match of the season! So, yeah, pretty excited about that. It won’t be against an official team, though, we’ll actually be shooting against our county sheriff’s department, and that’s gonna be awesome. Anyway, I told my coach she should be thankful that I decided to stay and shoot, because I could’ve been practicing softball instead. She said she was. What I shot that time was not as good as what I shot Monday. Like I said before, it seems like my scores keep alternating from bad to okay, and I think I have some idea why, but I’m not 100% sure. Well, I have complete confidence that I’ll get it worked out. I shouldn’t even be trying if I’m not gonna have a positive attitude, right? So, no matter how bad things get, I always have faith that they’ll eventually get better.

There must be something I’ve forgotten. I want to tell you about certain things that may have happened during the week, not just at softball and archery, but it seems like I sometimes forget any events that happen during the actual school day. I guess that’s what I get for waiting so long to post, but, sometimes, especially this year, it can’t be helped. Well, if I do remember, I’ll post about it sometime.

Now, Friday was very interesting. Because of this Friday being our first match of the season, we decided to do things a little differently than usual. We still scored, but, instead of being able to shoot with whoever, we were assigned partners in an exhibition boys vs. girls match. Pretty cool, right? So, each girl was assigned a boy to shoot with, and, the boys actually outnumbered the girls, but only by one, so we had to have a boy stand in for a girl. The person I shot against had first joined the team last year, and I ended up shooting better than he did. Also, my score was an improvement from Wednesday. It was fun, and I think we all enjoyed it pretty well, except for the fact that we had to split up into two groups because there were more people than could fit on the shooting line at once, so we had to rotate. So, guess how it all ended? Get ready for it… GIRLS WON!!! Yep, and our coach had a bag of prizes for each of us to select winnings from. I got a deck of magic cards. I’m not sure if they really work yet, but I’ll try them out eventually. It was great, and, if I remember correctly, the girls shot 1993, and the boys shot 1982. Only 11 points, but we still beat the guys! From there, my weekend got off to a pretty good start.

My brother finally got to come back after not coming for 3-4 weekends in a row, so it was really good to see him. My grandpa actually had to go back to the hospital during the week because he kept saying he couldn’t take it anymore, but the only reason he was being like that was because he needed medicine for his nerves. So they sent him back later that day with the right medication, and he’s been acting fine ever since. The good news is, we’ve been getting help from a lady who comes almost every day now, so it’s a lot less stressful. Also, my grandma has actually become friends with her. I like her, too, because, unlike some people like that, she actually interacts with all of us. She’s pretty cool. Well, I guess that’s all for now, sorry for yet another long post. I promise my next one won’t be as long. Until next time.

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Well everyone, a new week has begun, but I’m going to tell you about things that happened last week, certain things that changed. Beware, they might shock you, maybe even more than you think.

I’ll get straight to what happened, and then the title of this post will make way more sense. I don’t remember exactly when I finally decided it, but, Wednesday, I officially cut contact with my now-former best friend. See, that was a pretty darn big shocker, wasn’t it? Bet you didn’t think I’d drop a bomb like that, did you? Anyway, it’s true. I decided to do it because I felt it to be for the best. I mean, we don’t have any classes together, so we never really got to see each other or talk that much anyway. Also, she and I are both going through big changes, and I just thought it would be best for us to go on our own separate paths, at least for awhile. Also, even though I always said I wanted to protect her, it took me this long to realize that, she never really needed it. She never really needed me for anything, aside from the times I was there to comfort her when she was sad about something. So, Wednesday, I told her what I had decided during lunch. I told her that I think we should go our separate ways for awhile, mostly because of the changes. I told her that I didn’t want to sound mean, but I was going to quit worrying about her completely. I told her I loved her to death, but I felt it needed to be this way. So, that was the end. However, I do have complete faith that we will definitely end up crossing paths again. So, in short, I’ve disconnected myself from her world completely. I’ll admit, it was pretty hard, and I was sad for awhile, but, when I told my other friends and my family about it and why I did it, they all said I did the right thing. Also, whenever something ends, no matter how hard it may be, there will also be a new beginning. I think that that will be the beginning of new relationships in the future, with all the new people on the archery team, and all my softball teammates. So, whatever may come now, I’m ready to face it head-on. That wasn’t the only thing that changed, though. For the entirety of that week, I thought for sure that I would end up having an emotional breakdown. Why? Because of the great change that I’ve undergone.

Now, let me just say, when this happened, when I finally realized that, not only was I changing, but when I realized what kind of change it was, I felt very, very conflicted. I started feeling ways that I knew I probably shouldn’t. And I started feeling like that there was something I wanted, but it would be forever and always out of my reach. In other words, I spent the majority of the week on the brink of despair. But, for a current update, I’m glad to say that I have finally come to terms with my change, no matter what may come because of it. Oh, and that something I want? I know exactly what it is, and I know it’s wrong, but, as a human, I really can’t help how I feel about certain things, so, even though the chances of me ever obtaining it are probably slim-to-none, I’ll still hope for it, but only a little, because there is such a thing as too much hope, and that can make things go in the opposite direction you want them to. So, for now, I’ve just gone back to being how I normally am, how my family and friends are used to me being, happy, upbeat and a little crazy at times. What does the future hold? Only time will tell. So, for now, I’ll just set back, relax, and watch my life play out before me. The future isn’t set in stone, it can always be changed, depending on what directions we take, and the decisions we make. I’m gonna see just how far I can get. That’s all for now.

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Alright everyone, I have some news. The first part is gonna suck, but I’ll tell you already that it’ll get better towards the end. So, my grandpa’s health has been declining pretty fast in the past few months. Not too very long ago, we found out that he has ALS, which will eventually take his life. Now, for awhile it wasn’t that bad, but, on the last day of this past weekend, his legs quit working and he fell. We had to call an ambulance, and we all (me, my dad and grandma) went to see him later that day. The next few days after that, it was only my grandma and uncle going to see him, because I have school and my dad’s been away doing important military things. I always asked how he was doing, and every time it seemed like he was getting a little worse each day instead of better. However, it seems he’s being cleared up for check-out, because he’s coming home today. Of course, everyone is glad about that.

In other news, just today, I found out when archery starts! Yeah, I found out from a reliable source, and ever since I’ve been telling as many of my teammates as I can. Also, I think all this stuff that’s been happening, despite it being kind of bad, has actually helped me for the better. I’ve been keeping positive, like I always do, because I know that, no matter what kind of bad stuff happens, something good will come out of it in the end, and it’s hard to not be positive with an attitude like mine. Also, just yesterday, I was able to be of great use to a good friend of mine, my archery buddy, to be exact (haven’t heard anything about her in awhile, huh?). It was the class we sit together in, and, since we weren’t really doing anything, I, doing what all good friends should do, helped her study for a test, for I class I don’t even have! I’ve always thought of myself as a good person, and I think me doing something like that kind of confirms it, wouldn’t you say? So, in spite of all the bad things that happened, I’ve still been able to live the other parts of my life to the fullest. I’m actually really happy, and I can definitely feel all the love in my friends’ hearts, even if some of them do never convey their feelings out loud. Since this is my last year, I’ve been more open and outgoing since the beginning, and I truly believe I’m living my life as fully as I possibly can. My reality is changing, but I think this is the kind of change I can handle.