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Alright everyone, before anything else, I’d just like to wish you all a late Happy New Year, and I hope 2015 has been going well for you so far. Next, I’d like to apologize for my very long absence, but, the good news is, I’m back, and do I have things to tell you about! However, I am going to try to sum things up as much as I possibly can, so that this post isn’t really, really long. And, finally, about the title of this post, I don’t know what the future holds for this blog after I graduate. I might try to keep it running, but, things could change so much that I’d have to change the very title of this blog, or, perhaps, I could just start a new one. Feel free to leave your thoughts as to what you, my followers, think I should do concerning this blog. And now, on to the Friday Christmas Break started.

So, as you all know, Friday was the first match of the season for archery. As I was typing the last post that I posted on here that day, it ended up being so long that I had to keep typing it even when the match was going on after 6 at night. It was when I was sitting out, of course, since our team is always divided into 2 flights (1st flight shoots, then 2nd). So, for our first match, we didn’t go against another team, we went against our county’s sheriff’s department. So, yeah, we shot against cops. That’s not all, though. Since we didn’t have enough cops to have us all shoot against, it just so happens that 2 of our former senior teammates who graduated last year actually showed up with their bows and everything, so I actually got to shoot against one of them. It was great. In the end, we totally won, which was awesome, but my score was terrible. It was actually the worst score I’d gotten since practice started, and at a match of all things! That was what really upset me. But, it was okay. After the match was over, for those of us who didn’t leave right after it was over, we were all divided up into different groups playing with kickballs, volleyballs, and balls made out of tape. That was me. Me and 3 other of my teammates were throwing a ball made of tape, and I was throwing it like I would a softball in softball practice. Although, I guess I threw it harder than I usually do at actual softball practice, because, my archery buddy’s cousin, who’s in archery and softball like me, asked, “Archerpoet! Why can’t you throw like that in softball?” I just looked back at her, smiled, and said, “I can’t?” Then, when I was finally leaving, I stood in a spot where I could look over everyone, and thought, these are my people, and I wouldn’t want it any other way. So, yeah. It all ended well. After that, my Christmas Break officially started.

Well, I’m just going to say that, normally, Christmas Break would be really awesome, especially when it first starts off, but, this one, actually started off being pretty stressful for, not just me, but my whole family. As you should know from my previous posts, with my grandpa at home with the condition he’s in, it can be really hard on all of us. I actually think that that’s now the main reason why my dad and grandma get upset with each other, and there are times where it feels like I’m just caught in the middle of everything. I don’t know what to do sometimes. But, the good news is, we do have people who have been coming and helping him, so it’s less work for us. Other good news includes me being able to get along pretty well the aid that came almost every day (except for Christmas and New Year’s) to do stuff for my grandpa. It was only during December, though. Now she’s only coming 3 times a week, and I have school again during the week, so I never see her. I’ll admit, it has become more stressful again, but, most of the time, it’s not that bad. Though, there was a time when I felt so upset about it, I had to just go to my room, lock myself in, and cry my eyes out. That’s something I hadn’t done often at all, until my grandpa came home. Now, I am glad that we can have him home, but, if his condition starts getting any worse than it is, we’ll eventually have to send him to a nursing home, and my dad and I are actually the ones who’ve thought that would be best from the start. My grandma always has mixed feelings about it, which I understand a little, since he’s her husband and all, but, one of these days, something’s going to have to happen. But, enough about such a depressing topic. Christmas Break did get better, with the aid coming over to help. We finally had Christmas, and I got everything I wanted, including a new phone. A smartphone, not a flip phone from the dinosaur age. That was the best thing, because, if I didn’t tell you before, my arc hey buddy’s cousin had been hounding me because of how outdated my phone was, so I couldn’t wait to whip it out and tell her that she can’t hound me anymore! I also got a lot of stuff to watch, which kept me locked in my room over most of Christmas Break. It was great! Although, the most awesome thing I did before Break ended didn’t happen until almost right before it was time to go back to school.

On Saturday, January 3rd, 2015, I had the greatest night of my life. It was with my GS Crew, and it was the most amazing thing that ever happened to me. I won’t say exactly what it was, since I don’t want to give away my exact location (at least, not yet), but I’ll just say that it was a concert. It was a concert, and, not just of one artist, but multiple. It was something we had also went to the previous year, which was our first time going, but this time was so much more awesome. To keep it short, I was probably one of the luckiest people there that night. Not only was I technically 2nd in line to meet the lead singer of one of my all-time favorite bands (and get his autograph), I was also able to meet all the members of another band that I hadn’t discovered until I heard them there, and have them all sign their latest CD. Oh, and I got a picture with them, too. So, with all that happening, and just being there with my awesome friends, definitely made it the greatest night of my life. We didn’t get back until late at night, but I had plenty of souvenirs that I brought home from it. It was AWESOME. Then, after that, nothing happened Sunday, and my life didn’t start picking up again until I finally got back to school this past Monday.

Nothing really happened during the school day, so I’ll skip to archery practice. Well, except I got to show my archery buddy’s cousin my new phone, and she stopped hounding me, so that was my major accomplishment of the day. So, I thought we were going to have softball not long after like usual, but our coach sent out a text saying we were changing to Tuesday’s, Wednesday’s & Thursday’s, and that we weren’t doing normal practice, but workouts, like weightlifting, and such. Although, I actually ended up not going all week. Anyways, back to archery. Monday was a pretty good shooting day for me. I’m finally starting get a grip on what I need to do to be able to shoot where I want, and it’s great! Although, I do still have problems with certain arrows. Like one time, when I was shooting from the 15 meter line, 15 meters, I had the most awesome group going I’d had all season, but then, on the last arrow, it totally sucked. I was so mad! It’s like, that one arrow that just hates you. Ha. But seriously, though. It was bitter-sweet. After practice was over, I walked out with my archery buddy, and, guess what? You remember the thing I told you about happening the Thursday before Break? I finally told her about it. She felt bad afterwards, and I was left wondering why I even worried in the first place. My archery buddy, and our other friend in that class, they’re both nice people, but, sometimes, I think they have a little trouble showing it. She even told our other friend about, and she said the same thing. She said that I could just come up and sit with them whenever, which, I did already know that, but there were certain things I wanted to make sense of. Now, everything is just fine. And, you know what? Tuesday, our other friend wasn’t even there, nor was the 4th member of our usual party, so we just stayed in our seats beside each other and worked on some stuff we had to do. The day after that, my archery buddy told me that she would just ask me from now on if she could go up there, because she also said that, if I was ever feeling down, or needed a buddy, or something like that, she would just stay back there with me. See? She really is a good person.

So, Wednesday, I had gotten myself all ready because I thought I was going to go to softball that day, but, I ended up just going to archery with my archery buddy’s cousin, who I ended up waiting at her house with again. Let me just say, though, that staying for archery was a last minute decision. We were just getting ready to stop at the gym to let my archery buddy’s cousin off, then I decided that, instead of softball, I would do archery instead. Thus, I haven’t done softball all week long. That’s okay, though, because I can always go next week. Well, hopefully. But, anyway, I’m actually really glad I chose archery instead, because it ended up being the best night practice ever, despite the fact my score dropped a little (my score is never that good on Wednesday’s anyway). The reason for that is because, not only did we finally get our new team shirts (which are totally awesome), but, after practice, when everyone else was gone except for me and one best freshman friend (and our coach), we just sat there and totally rocked out to different songs by bands we both liked a lot, and it was awesome! One of the best parts was our coaches’ reactions to me singing along with one song, and both of us dancing to another. Yep. Best night practice ever.

The next day, Thursday, yesterday, I didn’t even go to school. Why? Because, where I am, it got colder than Antarctica, with a negative degree wind chill! So, my dad decided I would just stay home. Luckily, though, I didn’t miss much, as I found out when I came back today. Today, though, was the first day of final exams, before we move on to the 2nd Term, where everyone’s class schedule gets changed. But, the good news is, I only had one final today, and, when I thought I might actually fail it (it’s my 4th period, which I’m passing with flying colors), I did manage to pass, with a really decent grade. So, that was the only thing I really had to worry about, if only a little. For my 5th period, which is my hardest class (that I’m failing), we never even went into the classroom. Our teacher’s 4th period class is even harder than ours, so there were still people n there from that class who were finishing up that final. So, we had to spend the whole time hanging out in the classroom next to it, which was okay with me, because we got to just do whatever we wanted to do. So, I chatted with my friends for awhile, then I sat down on the ground and listened to music on my phone. It was pretty great. For 6th period, which is when we should’ve had another final, I just had a really long study hall, which I spent the whole time typing this post, actually. 7th period, we just worked on studying on our final for that class, which isn’t until Tuesday. Now I’ll be moving on to much more recent events. So, for the past little while, I’ve actually been failing my 1st period class, and so I’ve been worrying about that. So, I decided to go talk to that teacher, and now I have new hope. All I have to do is make sure I study really hard over the weekend, then, as long as I pass the final, I can pass the class. I mean, hey, I’m on the verge of passing anyway. Oh, and, one other thing. I wasn’t worried about my 5th period final at first, but then, my archery buddy, of all people, said that she believed in me. Because, our teacher just recently said that, if we get a passing grade on the final, even if we’re failing, that’ll become our grade for the class. Now, I don’t even need to pass it, because I don’t even need that class, but, all because of my archery buddy, and her cousin, too, I will try and put forth some effort, because that’s just who I am. I will hold their belief in my heart with me to the day of the final, and that will be what motivates me. I know some of you might find that strange, but it’s how I’ve been for as long as I can remember now. I’m not ashamed of who I am, not one bit.

And, for the last thing, I’m currently finishing this post up in the gym, because we’re having yet another archery match later tonight. Wish us luck! Later!

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Hello, loyal followers! I’m finally back to tell you about this past week (Thanksgiving Break), and how this week is going so far. Brace yourselves, though, this post might be a little long since I’ve been away for so long, but it’ll be worth it. So, this past week was really awesome, but, also, kind of stressful at the same time. The best part was that my aunt who lives in another state got to come over and stay with us for the whole week. It was awesome, because she used to live pretty close to us, just about 10-15 minutes away, and, before she moved, my dad, brother and I would go over to her place a lot and play games, so we got to do that. The only difference was, my brother didn’t get to come over the break. Although, my uncle was there one of the days, and he played games with us. It was a lot of fun. Oh, and for Thanksgiving dinner, we had a lot of awesome food. I ate so much that, for the remainder of the break after that, I felt really fat! But, it was totally worth it. The food was great, and the family time made it even better. Another thing is, my grandpa finally got to come home from the rehab center he was in. That is great, but, I have to say, him coming back has caused plenty of stress for the whole family. He can’t really do much for himself anymore, so my grandma, dad, me, and anyone else who happens to be at our house who’s family has to help take care of him, and it can be exhausting, I really don’t know what the future holds as far as that goes, but things are starting to get a little better since we’ve been having actual medical professionals to come and help out for a few hours each day. Anyway, I’ll change the subject to something more positive. How about… this week, perhaps?

I will start this section off by talking about Monday. You won’t believe the first thing that happened. Monday morning, when I first woke up to get ready for school, I can’t even describe how ready to go I was. I got up, got dressed, ate, and waited for my dad to come pick me up and take me out to the buses. But, after waiting until it was really, really close to time to go, he didn’t show. Before I go any further, I’d just like to say that I do live with my grandparents, but my dad lives literally right beside us. So, in the end, I had to make two journeys down to his place and back, through the wet grass, because it was raining. Turns out, somehow he overslept, so he ended up having to take me all the way to my school, because, by the time he got ready, my bus and the other buses were already long gone from the elem. school. Neither me nor my dad knew for sure if I would make it in time to not be late for my first class, but, luckily, I got there just in time. Now that, I believe, is the most interesting thing I’ve had to do on any morning. Now I will skip ahead to lunch later that day. There are two good friends of mine, who are in my GS Crew, who I always sit with. Let me tell you, we’re maniacs! One of them said something, but I thought she said something completely different from what she did say, and we all almost died laughing! It was great. Skipping ahead again, I will tell you about after school, what happened at archery practice, and about what happened before, during and after softball practice. So, this week I decided to go to archery practice instead of going to a meeting with my GS Crew. However, after I got to archery, there were times I kind of wished I would’ve gone to the meeting. Our coach is even worse than she was, according to my teammates, and, surprisingly, even I’m starting to upset with her at times. There was one time Monday where I even walked up to her, looked her straight in the eye, and told her that I could just walk out if I wanted to. But, I did end up staying. Although, archery actually ended early, so I did have time to go over to the other building and spend a few minutes with my GS Crew. I got there, then, after only a minute, I started kind of regretting that. So, I walked into the room and, before I knew it, my hair was being braided for the first time. Alright, so I said that I regretted it, but, not really, because I actually looked pretty sweet with my hair braided, kind of like Katniss from The Hunger Games. After that, I only stayed a few more minutes before going back to the gym to find out that my archery buddy had decided not to stay for softball because she was feeling sick. I was kind of sad about that, and we stayed there a few minutes while I decided whether I wanted to stay at the gym all by myself or go with them to her cousin’s house where she would drop her cousin and I off. Eventually, I decided to stay at the gym. So, my archery buddy, being as nice as she is, gave me a snack that she had with her so that I wouldn’t starve while I was there. So, then I walked out with her and her parents who were there and saw them off. Well, almost. I actually stood by the gym doors for a couple minutes, then, as something only I would think of doing, I decided to go outside to see how cold it was. As soon as I did that, I noticed my archery buddy hadn’t left yet, and she proceeded to call me over to her car. She said that her cousin’s house has WiFi, which is what I needed so I could do homework, and why I first decided to stay. But, I ended up going with them. And, you know what? I’m glad I did. My archery buddy’s cousin’s mom was expecting all of us to come, so she made a big supper, and I was able to eat dinner with them, which was really nice. As I was eating, I told the cousin how nice it was for me to be able to keep coming to their house like that, and that it felt like I was slowly becoming part of their family. And guess what she said? She said that I am like a part of their family now, and they love me like family. And, with that, I swear I almost burst into tears. It seriously made me feel awesome. Skipping ahead yet again, it was the cousin’s mom who drove us back to the gym for softball.

Nothing much happened on the way there, but, after we finally arrived, I went and opened my big mouth by telling them I sing, which, even with last year, not a lot of people know I can. So, since there weren’t a lot of cars in the parking lot yet, she told me to sing them a song. Let me tell you, I was hesitant. So, I ended up telling them how I don’t really do well in sudden situations like that, because I can’t really think of a good song to sing right on the spot. And, get this, after that, she actually threatened to drive laps around the school, so that I couldn’t get out, until I sang something. Luckily, though, we ran out of time. So, the cousin and I left her mom’s car and entered into the gym, after her mom said she’ll make me sing something next time I come over. At practice, the thing I guess I had the most trouble with was getting my hips into my swing when I bat. Other than that, I did pretty good. Wait until we get to yesterday’s, though. When it was over, I actually walked out without saying anything to anyone, because I guess I was deep in thought.

When I got home, I did everything the way I normally do after getting back from softball practice, but, something ended up happening that I never would have imagined. Before I get into that, I’ll just say that I ended up having to miss the next day of school. When I got back, I told my friends who asked that I was really sick, like, stomach sick, and it was bad. What I didn’t tell them, though, was that I had to go to the ER at after 1 in the morning. It was that bad, but, luckily, I was able to make a full recovery and come back the very next day, Wednesday. Now, and finally, on to yesterday.

Yesterday was AWESOME. I’ll just go ahead and skip to after school, because that’s when everything starts picking up anymore, at least of softball practice days. When school let out, I went to ride with my archery buddy and her cousin to her cousin’s house like I always do, but, this time, we changed things up a little. Before we went to the cousin’s house, we actually went out to eat, and it was great! After that, we went to the cousin’s house, and things slowed down after that. I wasn’t able to sing a song like I planned. I was supposed to sing a Christmas carol (cause it’s that time of year), but I really wasn’t able to get enough practice in. So, it was postponed. But, I did tell them about my other talent, writing poetry. I even showed them my collections, and they all thought my poems were really good. Shortly afterward, we left for practice. Let me tell you, with this practice, I went harder than ever! It was really physically exerting, and I pushed myself to the point where it felt like I was gonna throw up! But, hey, this first year of softball for me is also my last, so, gotta give it my all, right? But I improved a lot yesterday. The coaches hardly stopped me to correct me for anything, except a couple times when I was batting. Also, I’m getting to interact with the other players a lot more, which is awesome for me. So yeah, it was epic. Well, that’s it for now, at least until next week. Oh, really sorry this post was so long. Later!

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So everyone, I’m back once again to tell you about the events that happened this week! It didn’t really get started until Wednesday, the first day we actually had softball practice in the gym at my school (previously, we were having it on the field at the middle school).

It all happened because my dad didn’t want to make a bunch of trips to town and back to drop me off and come get me, because we do live out in the country a little ways away from my school. So, I got a plan set up, to go with my archery buddy, who drives, to her cousin’s house after school, then come back in time for practice. So, that’s what I did. I had met her cousin, who’s a freshman, at a game for the sport my archery buddy had managed, and we were able to become pretty good friends after that. It was pretty great. I got to meet my archery buddy’s aunt and uncle, and her aunt made us all quesadillas, which were really good. It was really cold that day, but one of my archery buddy’s younger relatives (very young) wanted to go outside to play. It was pretty awesome, because everyone else had coats on, and I wasn’t wearing anything like that. They were all like, “How are you not freezing?” and I was like, “Well, it just doesn’t phase me.” It was great, because they kept trying to figure out how on earth that cold wasn’t affecting me. After that, we just sat around their living room until it was time to go back for practice. You know what happened, though? We didn’t even end up going to softball. We ended up just staying for archery practice, which started a little before softball. I did pretty good on scoring, and I’m still adjusting to the poundage change on my bow. When I left it at school, it accidentally got changed to 20 pounds, which is pretty heavy for me, but I’m actually adjusting to it pretty well. Like I told everyone, I can get stronger. Although, I actually did pretty crappy Friday. My archery decided not to come, and we had to pick partners who would watch us every time we shot, and it was just not my day, because I totally sucked. However, I do firmly believe I can come back from it, as long as I stay focused. Anyways, we just did archery, my buddy’s cousin left early, and my archery buddy, who is so nice, actually waited with me for my dad to come. So, it was late at night, and we waited outside while standing behind her car, and she started telling me about all the stuff we do for softball conditioning. She said we do different drills and exercises, and that we’ll eventually start lifting weights. I’ll be glad of that because, not only will it help me with softball, it’ll be what helps me get stronger so for archery I’ll have enough upper-body strength to pull back my bow string without shaking, which is a slight problem I’ve been dealing with. Also, I need to slow down a little bit, because I have been going a little too fast. At least, that’s what happened Friday. Anyway, she was telling me about conditioning, then my dad came. She was about to say, “See you later,” but I told her to wait, because I wanted to say something to her before we parted ways. I told her I was sorry, and that I had no idea how she was able to be friends with me this whole time, because I’m like, the most boring person ever. You see, while I was at her cousin’s house, her cousin kept telling me I was acting weird, different from how I normally act, and I thought I was acting normal, but I guess that wasn’t my ideal situation (it still went pretty well, though). After I said that, she said she thinks the reason we’re able to be friends is because we’re both the same amount of boring, because, like me, she only goes to school, does archery and softball, then goes home. That’s what she said. I could have said some other things, but I just left it at that, told her thanks for everything, and she said that I could just come with them every Wednesday, and that it was no problem. After that, we left.

Isn’t my archery buddy great? I mean, I know I’m also a senior and I haven’t even learned to drive yet, but, you know, she’s never judged me for that, not once. What a good friend she is! When I told her I had to be one of the most boring people on earth, and she said that we were both the same amount of boring because of what we did every day, that isn’t exactly what I meant. I mean, my archery buddy is really funny, nice, and she can get along with pretty much anyone, so people like doing stuff with her. Every time, someone says something funny, she’s almost always able to come back with some sort of witty comment. No, don’t get e wrong, I can be pretty funny, too, but, for me, it almost always depends on the people I’m with. Some people I can make laugh better than others, while my archery buddy has no trouble making anybody she comes into contact with laugh. That’s why I said what I did. I guess I must be doing something right, though, because this year she’s started talking to me a lot more, and doing stuff like getting in line with me at lunch. I really like the way things are going now, and not just with my archery buddy. In fact, my whole social life is starting to go extremely well, as I’ve started talking to old friends who I hadn’t had a full-on conversation with in years. It’s so great! All I have to right now is get on better terms with the sophomore class, get to know them a little better, because it seems like, for some reason, all my motivation’s been escaping me as of late. But, no worries, I will accomplish what I set out to do, one way or another. If I can’t, I don’t know how I’ll ever be able to continue living with myself. Well, that’s all for now!

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Hey hey, everyone! How are all my loyal followers doing? Good, I hope. So, I have got a lot of awesome stuff to tell you about. Right now, as I’m typing this on the road (I’m not driving, don’t worry), I am having the greatest feeling of happiness I believe I’ve had so far this school year. That’s right! This week has had it’s ups and downs, that’s for sure, I almost relapsed back to what I did last week with my best friend (refer to my previous post for details), but, thankfully, I was able to sort things out once and for all. Anyway, let me tell you about something really awesome I did yesterday (Thursday) after school. So, for those of you that have been with my blog from the beginning (or near the beginning), you might remember me telling you about my archery buddy, and how she’s a manager for a girls-only sports team. If you remember, I also believe I told you early last school year about how I went to one of the games at that time. Anyway, I decided that I wanted to watch at least one game this year, too. I talked to my dad, and he said it was cool. So then, I talked to my friend, and, the next thing she said took me by surprise. She said that, quite possibly, she could get me into the game for free. That was interesting, but, just in case, my dad gave me some money anyway, if only for concessions. Now then, about that day. My dad picked me up directly from school, a little later than usual, then we went to town to get some food and kill time before the game. After all that, he dropped me back off at school by the gym, but, I didn’t go in through the main gym door, where I would’ve had to pay, I went into the side door that leads to the locker rooms. So, if you haven’t guessed already, I didn’t have to pay! Believe it or not, right when I walked in, my archery buddy was the first person I saw. She asked me if I’d paid yet, then, after I said no, she said, “Good, then don’t.”

So, how did I pull that off? I acted as a manager, of course. That in itself was a lot of fun! Before the game started, I was just helping my archery buddy and another manager with little things here and there, and there were also times when the managers got to have a little fun, which was awesome. I got to help our team warm up a little for the game. And, because I was a “manager”, I got to set at the scorekeeping table with the other managers, which is right by the court! I got one of the best seats in the house! It was great. During the game, while we were watching, my archery buddy and I also got to chat some, and I had fun just doing that. The game was super-intense and awesome! And, guess what? We won EVERYTHING! So yeah, I had a lot of fun, and, since I already talked to my dad about it, I’ll be going again next week!

Now, about today. Today was awesome! My best friend came back today after having not been at school yesterday, and she was in a much better mood than she had been on Wednesday. It was cool, because she and I, despite what had went down, were still able to talk to each other normally. During lunch, she even told me about what problems she had been dealing with (finally). Then, after school, I told her about the game. After that, we just had some good fun (I made her laugh, then she said she thought I was naturally funny, which made me feel good) until my best friend and her boyfriend’s bus came. Now, let me backtrack a little bit, because there was stuff that happened along with that. To start off, I honestly think me going to that game last night made the already-good relationship between my archery buddy and I even better. I acted crazy like I naturally do, and she pointed out the fact I was crazy. Ah, good times. Also, and, if I didn’t tell you, I actually have a class with her this year (first time since my sophomore year, when I first started this blog). It was just a work day today, because we had a somewhat time-consuming assignment, and I was just about to get finished, I believe. My archery buddy, who, awesomely, sits right beside me, was working on an assignment for another class. Then, completely unexpectedly, she actually asked me to help her focus, since she was having trouble. So I did, then, after a few minutes, she started listening to her music on her laptop, and she said that I could listen with her if I wanted to. And, you know what? I did. I did, unlike the first time I could’ve when we rode together on the bus to Nationals for archery my sophomore year. It was great, and, I really believe it did help her focus a lot better. The really awesome thing is, my archery buddy and I actually share a lot of the same musical interests, unlike even me and my best friend! You know, it’s little moments like that with friends that you really have to learn to look out for and appreciate. So yeah, these past couple weeks or so have been a complete roller coaster, I’ll tell you, but, at least my weeks always seem to end on good notes. And, let’s hope it stays that way. Until next time!

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