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So, I know it’s been at least 11 days since I last updated this blog with an original post (as in, not sharing one from my other blog, but it did get a lot of good feedback, thanks to all who checked it out). But, as you know, I’m in my senior year, and unexpected work shows up all the time, so I never really know how busy I’ll be these days. But, I’m back to tell you how this past week went, and, also, at the time of me typing this, I’m unable to think of a good title for this post. Who know, though? Maybe as I type, I’ll type something that’ll give me some inspiration for a title. Anyway, I’ll start off with Monday (obviously), and tell you about archery and softball.

At archery that day, my score was pretty good. It could have been better, but it was okay. It’s weird, though, because it seems like my score keeps alternating each time. You’ll notice that when I get to Wednesday. I believe it was that day I was telling people about what I would say to our coach if she actually managed to make me mad like some other people she’s upset. Don’t worry, it’s nothing bad, I would just tell her that the main reason for me staying is not just because I love archery, but because I’ve been with the team for the 3rd year in a row, and, if I left now, I’d feel like I was turning my back on them. The first year I joined, the friends I made from it became one of the most precious things to me, just as precious as my actual family, because I do consider them to be like family. I mean, you know where I’m coming from, right? They’re my motivation. That’s how it’s been since the beginning. There isn’t anything I wouldn’t do to stay with them for as long as I can. Anyway, moving on to softball.

Starting off, let me just say that softball is starting to get WAY more intense. Seriously, we weren’t really doing anything major until Monday, then our coach just decided to ramp up everything. We were doing a lot more running, catching, and throwing. Also, yet again it got to the point where I thought I would throw up. The good thing is, I’m pretty sure I’ve almost mastered batting. I say that because, not only did the coaches say very little to me when I was batting, but one of my teammates, who I have a class with and didn’t really start talking to until softball, actually said to my archery buddy, who’s missed because of homework, that I was getting pretty good. So, yeah, that definitely boosted my confidence, not that it wasn’t boosted. It was great. But, even though it’s starting to get a lot more physically exerting, I will continue to stick with it, because I am not a quitter like I once was, and I want to make more awesome memories slightly different from the ones I have been making. I still have to earn their trust and friendship, but I think after this week I should have no problem with that. I’ll actually tell you about that in my next post, which will be my last post for awhile. Well, a couple weeks, at least. That’s because this week is the last week of school before Christmas Break, which lasts for two weeks.

On Wednesday, I was going to do softball to begin with, but, in the end I decided to stay at archery to get more practice, because, and I don’t think I mentioned this, but this Friday is our first match of the season! So, yeah, pretty excited about that. It won’t be against an official team, though, we’ll actually be shooting against our county sheriff’s department, and that’s gonna be awesome. Anyway, I told my coach she should be thankful that I decided to stay and shoot, because I could’ve been practicing softball instead. She said she was. What I shot that time was not as good as what I shot Monday. Like I said before, it seems like my scores keep alternating from bad to okay, and I think I have some idea why, but I’m not 100% sure. Well, I have complete confidence that I’ll get it worked out. I shouldn’t even be trying if I’m not gonna have a positive attitude, right? So, no matter how bad things get, I always have faith that they’ll eventually get better.

There must be something I’ve forgotten. I want to tell you about certain things that may have happened during the week, not just at softball and archery, but it seems like I sometimes forget any events that happen during the actual school day. I guess that’s what I get for waiting so long to post, but, sometimes, especially this year, it can’t be helped. Well, if I do remember, I’ll post about it sometime.

Now, Friday was very interesting. Because of this Friday being our first match of the season, we decided to do things a little differently than usual. We still scored, but, instead of being able to shoot with whoever, we were assigned partners in an exhibition boys vs. girls match. Pretty cool, right? So, each girl was assigned a boy to shoot with, and, the boys actually outnumbered the girls, but only by one, so we had to have a boy stand in for a girl. The person I shot against had first joined the team last year, and I ended up shooting better than he did. Also, my score was an improvement from Wednesday. It was fun, and I think we all enjoyed it pretty well, except for the fact that we had to split up into two groups because there were more people than could fit on the shooting line at once, so we had to rotate. So, guess how it all ended? Get ready for it… GIRLS WON!!! Yep, and our coach had a bag of prizes for each of us to select winnings from. I got a deck of magic cards. I’m not sure if they really work yet, but I’ll try them out eventually. It was great, and, if I remember correctly, the girls shot 1993, and the boys shot 1982. Only 11 points, but we still beat the guys! From there, my weekend got off to a pretty good start.

My brother finally got to come back after not coming for 3-4 weekends in a row, so it was really good to see him. My grandpa actually had to go back to the hospital during the week because he kept saying he couldn’t take it anymore, but the only reason he was being like that was because he needed medicine for his nerves. So they sent him back later that day with the right medication, and he’s been acting fine ever since. The good news is, we’ve been getting help from a lady who comes almost every day now, so it’s a lot less stressful. Also, my grandma has actually become friends with her. I like her, too, because, unlike some people like that, she actually interacts with all of us. She’s pretty cool. Well, I guess that’s all for now, sorry for yet another long post. I promise my next one won’t be as long. Until next time.

Come back for my next post!

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Everyone, before anything else, it’s been 11 days since I posted. I would like to say, though, that there is good reason for it, for I was deeply caught up in the matters of life, and emotional matters within myself. I’m going to tell you about this past week, which was pretty hectic. Monday, I had a test in my physics class, which, unfortunately, I failed miserably. However, I do plan on finding some way to get my grade up in that class, so I’ve not been letting it drag me down. For my determination to pass, even if that class isn’t required, is great! We took a re-test of it Thursday, and, well…. I actually ended up doing worse. I don’t even know how that is, I really studied hard this time! The only reason I didn’t get much studying time in the first time was because I was caught up in work from other classes. Anyway, that’s not what I really wanted to talk about. To start this story of my life, I’ll have to go back to the previous couple days, starting with Tuesday. Tuesday… gosh, I wasn’t sure I was even going to make it through Tuesday! Now, listen up, this is where it gets really interesting. It all started when I began noticing some… problems, I guess you could say, between my best, most precious friend and I. I hadn’t really noticed them at first, but, I began to wonder because she hasn’t been acting like she did last school year when we first became best friends. It wasn’t until Tuesday that I figured it out. I figured out when she walked past me in one of her classes. I smiled at her as she walked by, but she barely even looked at me. Now that, felt like an arrow got shot straight into my heart, and not in a good way. After that, I convinced myself that, because it was the only reason that made sense to me, it was because of me. It was because of the fact that I couldn’t do things for her anymore. I can’t do the things for her now that I was able to do for her last year. Then, I decided that, for the benefit of the both of us, we should quit being best friends. Now, I will tell you, the thought of losing my most precious friend did nearly scare the life out of me. But, since I had convinced myself it was for the best, I knew it had to be done. However, the next day, Wednesday, I had to miss. I had to miss school so that I would be able to go see my grandpa, who had been moved to a hospital in a different state. Before I get to that, though, I should tell you that I got so worked up over how things were between my best friend and I, shortly after I got home Tuesday, I sent her a text saying, “I’m sorry.” Immediately after that, I turned my phone off completely. The day I went to see my grandpa was a good day. He wasn’t feeling to good, but I think he started to feel better when we got there to see him. Not only that, but the hospital he was in just so happened to be on a local, and, might I say, somewhat famous, college campus. My uncle, who drove us there, and I got to take our own personal tour of the place, and it was pretty awesome. The events of that day helped me forget about what was lying ahead. However, I knew that, once I came back to school Thursday, I had to talk to my best friend no matter what, otherwise nothing would ever change or be resolved. And so, I did. The next day, I came back to school. I was scared, don’t get me wrong, but, at the same time, I was unusually calm. I knew what had to be done. So, during lunch, after I’d eaten all my food, I went to the library where she was, and told her I needed to talk. So I did it. I told her that I felt we shouldn’t associate anymore, and that she should forget about me and find a new best friend, because I hardly thought that our current relationship could be called that of two best friends. She didn’t understand at first, so I told her it was me and not her, that it would be best for the both of us since not being able to do things for her that I used to be able to do for her was killing me on the inside. If we stopped being best friends, I wouldn’t be in so much pain, and she could fins a new best friend, someone better suited to be one for her, who could do more things for her than I could. Then, something unexpected happened. She said that she didn’t need me to do anything for her, and that the reason she’s been looking sad is because there were some issues she was trying to get worked out. And then I realized that, no matter what I’m able to do for her, as long as I do what I can, she’s not going to think anything less of me. So, very, very thankfully, we were able to get it all worked out, and we are still best friends! And then, to make it that much better, I was picked up directly from school by my dad. Before their buses came, I was able to hug my best friend, and her boyfriend, and tell them, “I love you guys.” So, in short, what started off as a crazy week, couldn’t have ended better.